Isolated: Espionage

This is my first diary room and I am actually really excited to let it all out, I feel like I have a lot of initial thoughts lmao.

I enjoy the seasons main twist and theme more than I thought I would. I was not sure at first how much it would play into the game but, as we have learned, it's going to become really apparent. I think that it is something that will constantly keep us on our toes and I think as the season progresses, it will be something that we have to become more aware of and weary about. I personally think any form of power you can get in this game is worth it because that is something that could single handedly change the trajectory of your game and it automatically makes me want to have it.

As for my housemates, I have a lot of thoughts about all of them so far. Currently, the only people I have not talked to are Ryan, Renny, and Sheila. Ryan and Renny not being active at all did not give me the chance to meet them and Sheila was active for what seemed like two minutes. Quite frankly I am not really sure how anyone was able to talk to her because I was checking who was active religiously so I could be one of the first people to contact them but I never saw Sheila. I do not blame her for taking me out of the competition but I also am saying to myself, there's no way she was able to talk to everyone else, right? As of writing this I reached out to her so I could bridge that gap and try to make amends for her taking me out of the challenge. As for the rest of the cast, I like them all for the most part. The person I trust the most is probably James and he seems like he trusts me the most. However, right away, I can tell he is a hard game player and I know that he is gonna be a threat down the road. Obviously, I have no intention in taking him out anytime soon but him winning both HOH and being the spy, as well as having good connections, has already told me that he is someone I will need to keep an eye out for. Sezer and Richard I like a lot as they both seem like really nice and genuine guys and the type of people I'd chill with in real life. I also feel like with Richard he really trusts me (I hope) so that could be very beneficial. I think Sezer trusts me but I think he trusts James the most which obviously if it is not me, I guess James is the next best case. However, I will probably continue to work on Sezer so he can really build that trust with me. Jennie is also a girl I really like in this game. Her and I are close in age and we seem pretty similar. Overall she seems like a really cool girl but I do not think we talk enough game. I know a lot about her personal self but I think I need to reinforce that she can trust me with gameplay so we can divulge more into that. The only 2 people I have talked to that I am not fully confident on are Adam and Amanda. I think Adam is a really cool dude and he opened up to me very easily about all kinds of stuff which instantly builds trust with me. However, him scaring people off in the challenge and building that mistrust already puts me away from him. Im glad that he did not take it hard that I took him out in the challenge but I do not want to be caught in the crossfires if people start gunning for him. Amanda is a girl that while I like her energy (sometimes), next to James I think she could be the biggest threat. I like her energy sometimes because she can either be seemingly genuine or at other times be really dry and barely give me anything to work with. She is one of those girls who I feel like could charm you because she has a fiery personality but then next thing you know she has everyone roped around her finger and is running the game. Dangerous and I want to keep my eye on her.

Going into this HOH competition I am not going to lie, I deadass thought I would do really well LMAO. I was so embarrassed how early I got out and I am pissed because that just told the other 10 people in the house that maybe I am not approachable. It could be good because they may see me as one of the least threatening now but for my own sake I wish I did better. I was feeling confident because everyone was talking to me and I had more than half the group lined up to have my back. I knew the one person I was not gonna talk to was gonna be the death of me and low and behold Sheila pulled through. Again, I dont know how anyone saw her as she was a missing person but it is what it is. I was not sure if I wanted HOH so I guess she just made the decision easier. I am thrilled that James won though. If I could not win he was without a doubt the person I wanted to win. Him and I have a really good thing going and if he is being honest I think we could make some power moves together. I say that knowing that this HOH will probably be just evicting an inactive person lmaoo.

This is my second confessional, I feel like I am gonna try to make one everyday to document my feelings.

As far as today was concerned, definitley the intensity and pressure was brought down significantly. That was to be expected seeing as we had no major events going on today but still it almost felt too quiet. I was actually kinda panicked for a minute lmao because I felt like I was supposed to have more going on but it was just dead silent. I tried getting around to talking to everyone to deepen my bonds with people and dude I just am not sure how I feel about everyone. I know everyone is not all here to make friends but damn I feel like anyone asks me a question it's because they feel like they have to LMFAO. I am not so butthurt that they are asking me because they have to but rather annoyed that people may not feel comfortable to open up to me yet. I know I can't expect much from day 2 but I am the kind of person that likes to get people to open up right away so its been hard to adjust to that idea of people not reciprocating that. Some people I feel are more authentic than others. I think my big driving factor in my game will always be my social factor and I think I can analyze peoples personalties well. Some people I have noticed are seemingly more self centered than others. My continuous confusion about Amanda progresses because she does not ever ask me questions back when we are talking which I don't normally like. But then I also am saying to myself, maybe she is just nervous? But either way it still hurts our conversation because I try really hard to prevent my conversations from going dry and I feel like ours usually does. Although, I think im also persevering enough that I will keep trying to knock away at her to see if she ever is willing to open up. I am afraid that people may be thinking I am going too hard too soon or that I am sounding fake by trying to really emphasize being genuine (if that makes sense). I really am a person who likes getting to know people for who they are but I am already overthinking if I am being extra with it. Also the other person I really wanted to note was James. Ironically the two people I think are the biggest threats are the ones I am having the most internal battle about being my ally. I really like James and I think I can trust him, but something I am beginning to sense is that he can go overboard. He mentioned to me about an hour ago if I wanted to make an alliance with Jennie and Amanda, then another with all the boys. Obviously I wont say no but shit I feel like making so many alliances so soon will get both of us caught. I am just trying to emphasize these relationships so that people will like me, alliance or not. I also wanted to add one final thing about Jennie and Richard. These are two people I feel like I know a shit ton about but I am afraid that this will not translate into game talk. Either way, I am enjoying myself a lot right now. I feel like in comparison to a lot of the other personalities I do not have as many interesting or perhaps intense traits, but I really think I am able to relate to them so its been really fun for me to meet these people. Its especially cool because I know I would not get the chance to meet or talk to some of these types of people in real life. Again, from what I have gathered, I am the youngest so far from the people I have talked to but I think that is what makes this so interesting to me because for some of these older people, they get a chance to bond with someone who they never would in their normal life either. I just want to keep emphasizing the point that I am some young college guy who likes to get to know people, but maybe I am not the brightest bulb. If people think I am not the brightest but like having me around that's about as good as a position I could ask for.

I was about to finish the diary room but I wanted to emphasize two things. I say "one final thing" for the fiftieth time in this diary room lmfao. One, I really want Sheila gone lmaoo. I do not think this girl wants to bother to getting to know me at this point. I think she has a pretty good personality from what I have gathered but she seems like she could be a pain, and again, I think she has no interest in getting to know me. If I could have it my way I would rather get rid of her now so I don't have to bother to getting to know her when I know she does not care for me. I also think that keeping inactive people around could be beneficial. Even if they were to get more active again later down the line, they would not have the solid relationships to keep them afloat. As to the second thing I wanted to say, I just wanted to say my rankings of all my allies right now. I have about 6 people I consider to be people I trust so this is the order they would be in. #1 is James, #2 is Richard, #3 is Jennie, #4 is Amanda, #5 is Sezer, and #6 is Adam.

That's all I have to say for now so until nominations...

Alright third diary room for day number three.

Going into today there was a few things that I really wanted to establish for moving forward. Our group does not have any drama going on so the best I can enlighten about my game right now is my connections lmao. Coming into today, the number one thing I wanted to do was continue to push the relationship I have with Sheila. I really wanted to get a general gauge of her and if we could form any bond. Especially after my diary room yesterday where I basically threw away any idea of working with her. My final verdict today after talking to her a lot is that I am unsure about her. The good things I notice about her is that she has a very natural way of talking. What I mean by that is the conversation feels smooth and she responds casually. I feel like when I ask people questions, sometimes it can feel like an investigation where I ask questions and they have to give a forced response. With her it felt like she was genuinely interested in answering questions and explaining to me things about herself. Some people do not even care to share any details and they will give you the bare minimum but she gives you a lot to work with which is incredibly helpful. However, through our good conversations about her life growing up in NYC, I still feel like I would not mind if she got eliminated. The number one thing I felt in our conversation is a disconnect in the sense that I felt like her and I were not exactly connecting. I feel like we were relating and bonding over some things, but it almost felt numb talking to her. Maybe it is because I already have so many pre-established bonds with others that I set a high bar for how I wanted our conversation to go that was unreachable. In addition to this though, and more prominently, I am feeling very confident that she is not revealing maybe everything about herself. Of course, it is early in the game and maybe she is just keeping her cards close to her chest. However, I would throw around the idea that her and Adam are the couple of the season.

I know my chances of getting it right are so slim and hell I am probably wrong, but even if they aren't the couple I find their relationship to be extremely weird. They share a joking dynamic in the forums that maybe im overestimating, but it seems like they have an already pre-established bond. I have been talking constantly with everyone and I do not feel like im at the phase yet where I can be cracking jokes with these people. One could argue, maybe thats just both of their personalities to be very joking and thats how they communicate with people easier. Perhaps thats true, but Sheila has only started to be really active on the forums today so how would they know they can bounce jokes off each other without it being weird so soon. Also, I realized earlier today that Sheila emphasizing the fact that she was single to me was strange. Maybe some people feel like that's important information to share, but in an anonymous game like this I really question why anyone would care about your SINGLE relationship status in comparison to if you were married or in a long term relationship that can spur more talking points. It just felt like she was trying to plant the idea of being a single woman in my head before I could even contemplate if she was in a couple. I also feel like her telling Amanda she was engaged before is a ruse to make people think that there’s no way she is the couple; her explaining this complicated background with dating makes everyone think it has to be true. The final piece of evidence I found to be really strange is Sheila coming up to me saying she does not want to work with Adam’s big alliance (which I’m gonna address in a minute). I find that really peculiar considering Adam told me how Sheila was reaching out to him to start conversations on Day 1 before anyone really got the chance to speak to her. That tells me that they’ve had a connection going for a while but suddenly she doesn’t want to work him? In addition, if they have a bond that clearly is pretty good because they joke around with each other, why would Adam deliberately ignore putting Sheila in the alliance. He said he made the alliance of all the people he feels good with but he just so happens to not put in the one girl he’s joking around with (lmfao). Plus, I feel like Adams shtick of acting like he doesn’t know anything about BB9 and hearing it from Sheila just seems very fake. It feels almost forced and I think he's lying. I just realized as I was typing this how Adam defended Sheila so hard in the first HOH challenge. When Amanda, him, and I were discussing in our 3 person chat who to knock out, he avidly defended Sheila and after she took me out of the game and the HOH ended, he was still defending her... yet they seemingly don’t have a good bond. It’s bullshit I know it’s bullshit. Either them two are trying to pretend they don’t have a relationship for whatever reason or they are trying to hide that they are the couple. Whether I’m right or wrong, I know I have to be extremely on the fence about what negative things I say about Adam and Sheila in any way to them. I also don’t know if I want to start spreading the word about them and my thoughts yet. I told Amanda, but I think she’s the only one I’ll tell for now I’ll decide later. Im afraid that if I’m right and they catch wind of me being aware, it’ll be like when Davonne found out about the twin twist and she told every single person and it painted a huge target on her back. I’m very aware that I could be sounding like a complete moron and be dead wrong lmfaoo but you can’t even deny that evidence is insurmountable. I mean Come on at least tell me I got one person questioning it even if I’m wrong.

Other than the Sheila and Adam trial I am running through my head, I wanted to make a note about this alliance that Adam is making. I’m kinda bothered in all honesty because I’m hearing about this major alliance that Adam is creating that while I’m happy I’m in, him and I haven’t talked really in the past two days and I’m hearing all this from other people. He keeps going to Amanda and James and it makes me unsettled to know that I’m one of the last people to figure out. If anything, this alliance is making me want to distance myself further from Adam. Ignoring the possible Sheila factor, I think the fact that he is making himself so prominent and really driving the head of this alliance makes me nervous to be too close to him. He seems loyal but at the same time he seems like a wild card who will do anything just to create some chaos. Adding on to that, you can just tell how power hungry he is and that he wants control over the group. I would try to see if I could bear with these reasons more if this guy reached out to me more but I feel like he lost interest. Also, I feel like everyone’s buggin so hard about this merge and that it’s gonna be this clear divide, but Im excited to meet the new people and explore those dynamics. Quite frankly, I don’t feel tied to this side of the house by any means and if I see a better opportunity over there I’m not necessarily afraid to jump ship. The reason I say necessarily is because I don’t want to damage the people I’m close with and I want to remain the good bonds I have going so far.

I want to elaborate on another character that’s been kinda making me hesitant which is James. I give him credit, he’s a smart social player and he’s giving it his all. But, I’m already feeling weary because he’s playing so hard so soon. Every time we talk he’s formulating some new alliance we can make and some bond we can manipulate to our advantage. Those two things would sound great in retrospect if we weren’t still in our first week and our first POV has not even happened yet. Also, the fact that so many people are quickly willing to trust him and put them in their close core sends red flags instantly. I’m not gonna turn on him anytime soon because if people want to keep working with both of us together there would be no reason for me to do so; not to mention I’m hoping that I can use him as a meat shield. However, if the opportunity presents itself down the line and people start seeing James for the sneaky player he kinda is, I think I would need to hop on that opportunity. But again, it’s still so early. I know that’s a huge jump from yesterday where I considered him my closest ally and the thing is I still do really trust him and I think he’s a great guy. However, I feel like he looks at me as his sidekick and he treats me like it too. I feel like anytime I express concerns or that maybe were jumping the gun, he doesn’t take me seriously and finds something to quickly deflect back. If that’s how he truly feels that’s perfectly fine and I’ll continue to play that role for him, but I know I don’t want to play this game as his sidekick and I won’t do it.

On the note of good things however, I think I can firmly say that Amanda is my number one ally right now. Contrary to james, I’m feeling significantly better about her today. My main point with Amanda was that I don’t think she was opening up to me and that could be a sign that perhaps she didn’t like me. I did wonder though If she was just normally a small talker and I have come to the conclusion that this is the case. She admitted to me today that she trusts me the most and started to give me a lot of valuable information about herself. I felt like today was the first break through I’ve had with anyone where I felt like we both really trusted each other and I wasn’t nervous if it was fake. I don’t think she’s the most strategic of our group but she has one hell of a good social game, no matter what people think of her. I just feel super good about her right now and I think our bond is only gonna continue to grow. I also feel that same way with Richard as well. I haven’t had that moment with Richard yet where I felt like this is a guy I can fully trust yet, but I sense we’re getting close. He has opened up to me a lot and I appreciate that. Him vocalizing how he really trusts me more than anybody gives me a lot of comfort. I feel like my social game, based off what I’m grasping, is really benefitting certain relationships and it makes me ecstatic because not only do I feel like these people really trust me, but they see me as a friend.

I have to wrap up this diary room but I wanted to make a rapid note that Jennie has me confused because she’s either incredibly strict on keeping her cards close to her chest or she just doesn’t talk that much game. She’s still someone I’m trying to figure out. I’m afraid our relationship will get lost in translation when we are put into the big group but we will see.

Alright this is my longest confessional by far but until the POV competition I’ll most likely lose tomorrow but happy to get to compete in...

Paragraphs, bolding, color options and gifs exist glyn. King of walls of text.

HAHAH sorry my bad my bad, I just got a lot to say

Glyn wrote: ↑Sun May 02, 2021 7:36:55 pm HAHAH sorry my bad my bad, I just got a lot to say

And PLEASE keep saying it


just with more spaces between the thoughts

Fourth Diary Room for my fourth day

I’d like to start by making a rebuttal against the argument made by BB theta implying I haven’t used emojis in my confessional, when I used approximately one last time. I’m kidding I’m kidding, I’ll try not to make this one block of text. I’ll even add hashtags at the end of everything like this is the circle lmfao.



Alright so today started off with the dreaded POV competition. I was gonna do it last night but I lost track of time and never got around to it so I had to do it today before I left all day. In my defense, I have said since day 1 I struggled using the forums and that I’m pretty inept when it comes to navigating them. Plus, The POV was hard man. I don’t know how Sheila and Richard did it in 5/6 minutes let alone doing it within 10 minutes. I also can’t be the only one who thought that puzzle was really hard. I mean honestly I didn’t know what pieces were corner pieces and what pieces went where. As badly as I want to win a competition, it might be best that I keep losing and not to mention, showing a bad performance, so that people are never nervous against me in challenges. I could lie and save some face by pretending that I’ve been throwing these challenges but I’m gonna be honest and say that’s not the case lmao. I wasn’t thrilled that Sheila won because it gave her power but maybe it’ll make her seem more threatening competitively. #botchedit #tryagainnextime

Onto my daily dose of discussing all my social connections. Before I talk about merging with the other group and all the new people, I think I’ll first discuss the people in group A. These diary rooms are gonna be long as hell if I go one by one through every person especially considering theres 10 new people I need to account for. I’ll try to go fast but I know I can trail off. #longdiaryrooms

So I first want to talk about my main girl Amanda. I truthfully am loving my alliance with Amanda. She’s the only person I truly do feel like I can trust 100%. I’m always the first person she goes to with information and I can tell because she’s always racing to text me. When I was gone all day I had a bunch of texts from her about new information and that just told me she really considers me her number one. She listens to everything I say and we can deliberate together what the best moves are for our game. What I also really appreciate is that we’re both kinda airheads so we can be airheads together. But again, I think Amanda can be more strategic than she wants to come off. She’s got a clear game plan in her head and I think she has the social connections and drive to pull it off. Without a doubt shes my number one #bonnieandclyde



I’m feeling more or less the same about James as I did yesterday. I can’t see him moving up on my trust scale anytime soon. I’m not sure if I’m overthinking it but again as I said yesterday, it seems like he is very defensive over his strategies and opinions on the game. He was talking about Susie and how he may want to talk to her and I just told him how I didn’t like her and he quickly snapped back saying he wasn’t trying to build a deep bond with her. I was like damn I’m not coming for you James. Maybe he thinks I’m coming off too abrasive and maybe I am, but I feel like I’m always lightly gesturing things to him so I can’t imagine lmaooo. James is just a person I’m gonna use until I don’t need him anymore. If he wants to make a sudden change I’m all ears but right now I’m not sure. #questionable

Richard is also the same as yesterday. Him and I continue our good bond so there’s not much to report on him. #Goodvibes

Jennie and Sezer I feel connected with but also extremely distant with. I talked to both of them very little today and it just doesn’t feel authentic to me. The thing is though, I really like both of them a lot they seem like awesome people and they are the type of people I’d be friends with. Just that deep close connection isn’t there. I’ll keep trying at it though. #Socloseyetsofar

Adam and Sheila I’ve drained my energy for yesterday so I don’t have anything else to say. I’m convinced they are the couple I honestly can’t see anyone else being the couple that I’ve met from group B. They are the only two people in the entire game I have some evidence pointing towards that and after Richard told me today that Sheila told him that she just found out there’s a duo twist, when I brought it up to her yesterday, tells me she’s trying to play dumb. I just think it would be really ironic if Adam and Sheila the two least compatible people of their season were the true couple. #Ontoyou

Now moving onto Group B, I must admit, in the nicest way, I’m not super impressed by them. In comparison to everyone I met in Group A, a lot of them seem to be very closed off. I have to understand that not everyone feels comfortable opening up right away and that’s fine. But why people deflect from opening up by making the conversation dry doesn’t make sense to me. That’s what I felt like with most of them, but not all. #dissapointed

I’m gonna outright say the people I’m pretty indifferent about because I didn’t get to talk to them very much and that’s Spiral, Chelsia, Aisleyne, and Grace. Spiral was kinda hard to talk to because I felt like I was being backed into a corner in relation to what conversation topics I could have. I just thought he was very vague with his answers so I didn’t have much to go off of when talking to him. Grace and I barely spoke at all but honestly she seems promising. Chelsia didn’t ask me any questions but she was good at giving long responses and going in detail so it gave me a lot to work with. I’m hoping I can keep fostering this relationship so she can trust me. Aisleyne I was really hopeful for but her conversation went terrible she didn’t ask me anything back and her responses were basically restating what I’d say. For example I could be like “wow you’re in fashion design that much be hard I heard it’s really competitive.” And then she would say back, “yeah it’s really competitive” lmaooo. Overall I’ll give it another shot with some of these characters but I’m feeling pretty meh about them. #unimpressed

Pete is somebody I really liked upon first talking to. I wasn’t sure what to expect with him considering I didn’t know there was a person playing as a Pete in this game until I saw the conversations flooding in lmfaooo. However we bonded a lot right off the bat. The fact that he’s from Philly which is so close to where I live and he goes to the same shore town as me is insane. I’m gonna be shocked if he doesn’t want to continue building a relationship with me because thats a built in bond and that already builds trust. Not to mention he seems like a really dope guy and I wouldn’t mind working with him. Fingers crossed for a better conversation with him tomorrow. #EastCoastGang



The person I was most impressed with in the entire group was Parker. Parker was the only person who I felt like was a really good conversationalist and he’s hella smart. I already know he’s gonna be a threat by how much both general knowledge he knew and specific categorized knowledge. I also think he’s the one I was able to connect with the best and if I’m not mistaken he’s the closest to me in age. I think I found out I’m the youngest in the entire cast which surprises me too because I thought more people my age would do this but guess not lmfao. Amanda is pretty hesitant about him but I think I also have a good handle on her and could make her start trusting him. I’m not putting all my trust in him because he trusts Susie and I’m not liking Susie all that much but if we could get her out of the picture, then that’s something I’m willing to work with. #promising

On the note of Susie I’m really bummed about her. I’m not gonna gas her up too hard but the best feeling I can give is when you meet a celebrity you’re so excited to see in person and they let you down really hard lmao. I just had a lot of hope for her because in my mind she’s married so I guess in my mind that translated to just being happier lmaoo dont ask me how that works in my head. In addition, based off her nomination speech, she portrayed herself to be very sweet and like a motherly figure and I gravitate towards those figures. But it was a huge let down when I began talking to her. If I remember she didn’t ask me any questions and she just sounded really entitled. I’m not trying to judge anyone too hard because maybe that’s just how she comes off and that’s probably not her true self, but the way she described how she was a model and all her other professions it just felt very egotistical, almost as if she was talking down to me. I know I asked her about her jobs it was just the delivery and the tone. In my pre-interview to the season I said that was my number one thing I can’t stand in someone and that’s a person who’s ego is huge. Who knows, maybe like Sheila, I’ll have a completely different opinion on her tomorrow. But as of right now, I see Susie as a threat and I don’t want to work with her. #wolfinsheepsclothing



Shah is the last person I want to talk about. I don’t have much to say about him other than I just don’t get good vibes from him either. He was the one person from the entire group B that was active that I didn’t originally reach out to and that’s because I had a gut feeling he couldn’t be trusted. I don’t like the way he is campaigning in the game so far and he seems seedy. Everyone could be painting him out to be bad but In addition he just seems really toxic. I don’t like how when I asked him to tell me about himself he instantly went into game talk and then deflected by asking me about myself. That puts up a red flag because in my head I wonder instantly why he deflected so hard. I’m sure he’s a good guy but in this game I don’t see a bond growing and if I had a preference he would be going in the eviction tomorrow. #byaunanimousvote

Other than that, I wanted to make one final note on how I think I’m playing the game and how I think I’m doing. I think I’m doing alright! I said in my pre interview I don’t have a whole load of confidence so it’s hard for me to outright say I’m doing awesome or I’m killing it. But I will say I am proud that I’ve been so active and that I’ve been really making an effort to develop these friendships. I said I wanted people to think I’m dumb but a nice guy and I think it’s working. I’m (unintentionally LMAOO) acting like an idiot sometimes so I think it’s making people not feel so tense with me. I just think I need to continue what I’m doing of using my social game and not making myself a threat, and I’ll be golden.

Until my day 5 confessional man these are exhausting to write...

I took the critiques I hope everyone enjoys the new and improved diary rooms that are not a block of text LMAOO

I just wanted to make a note that I feel stupid for making that theory about the pictures LMAO. Now I wish I didnt vocalize it because I look dumb as hell now that I vocalized this adamant theory lmfaoooo. I deadass thought I was onto something too I thought it was this crazy plot twist and I detected it. I thought maybe they were intruders or something. Just wanted to make a note of that