Isolated: Espionage

1. So, after some removals and a quit, we had our first official vote tonight! Was Natalie leaving the outcome you wanted? Or would you have preferred something else to happen? How does this impact your own game moving forward?


Well, out of the two people, I wanted Pete to survive but Nat blew the hell up at me because I said to Parker I wanted her to go and Pete to survive. He played dumb but she was saying I was throwing her to the wolves? Why is it that I am constantly being painted as the villian in everything. Like everyone is blowing me up to be such a danger and scheming player and that I am part of the couple but its all bullshit. I am just a misunderstood Angel, who has constantly been painted as a bad person by a troll and the people who are looking for reasons to nom me. I am so over all this negativty people are constantly throwing at me, I am a nice person, regardless of the mud they throw, I know that. I am not gonna give the haters the attention they clearly crave in fights no more. Its not worth feeding that fire.

2. The vote wasn’t the only thing that happened tonight…first there were nominations, a veto competition, some public chatter, and a fiery exit. Break it down for us from your perspective – What the hell happened?! Were you in the thick of it, an innocent spectator, or egging things on in the background?


Well, I was coming into this round feeling pretty good. I had a good relationship with a few people and I thought I would be in a good spot. Adam messed up so many of our challeneg attempts and I thought this was because he was throwing it but finding out he was the spy after the round, it made some sense! Sezer made some talk about people wanting me up but then a lot of people were saying he had said the same to them, so I wasn't too worried. I was gutted my ally was on up on the block and I wanted him saved, so I was always going to vote for Pete if I had rhe chance and with nobody using the veto, they stayed up. I kept my ally in and survived the round. Of course, Nat went apeshit at me for daring to say I wanted Pete, what should I have done, lied to her face? I just kept out of the fight, even when Shahbaz was throwing me under the bus as being part of a couple when that is so far from the truth. I am fucking sick of my name being constantly in his mouth, the bloke is so obessesed with me. So he decided as I wasn't going to engage him, he was going after Jen and Pete instead. Adam fought with him and went to bat for me, which was appreciated.

3. We left things off tonight with a non-live HOH competition focused entirely around social perception. Do you think you can read Shahbaz’s mind better than everyone else? …Do you want to?

Fuck no, I felt like Clarice Starling going down to the cells. Only instead of Hannibal Lector, I got the guy who jerked off in his hand and tried to throw it at me. I am not surprised I bombed, I didn't want to vibe any of that nasty negativity. I am all about good vibes and energy at the minute and I want to stay far away from that as possible. I was glad I lost but his answers were so far off what I had thought and his reasoning was so out there.

Honestly, at this point I feel like regardless of what I do, everything keeps circling back to me being involved with the drama, whether I like it or not. This has a big target on my back and honestly, I may just have to live with it, maybe I can't get rid of it. Maybe I need to just become the targeted person who is constantly being thrown under the bus. They are just jealous of me being Susie, I guess.

We saw nominations, a power of veto competition, and some words said after the veto ceremony. What happened tonight from your perspective? What are you thinking for the vote tomorrow?

Honestly, this past round had been a trip. Amanda threw me up and I later found out as a pawn to get Chelsia out and then it comes down to me vs PEte when that all came out. I wasn't going to campaign against Pete by throwing him under the bus, I was going to treat my ally with some respect. But then he had to leave and I found it really sad. I have a lot of time for Pete, I really enjoyed him and he had a lot of good energy in this game and I thought he was a sweetheart. I hate to see him leave like this and I hope his family gets through this. With everything that has been going on in the world, I hope something good comes his wau.