Introduction
I am gonna preface this now before he says it, I did get mad at James a little earlier because I think he is misconstruing a lot of the things I said or did. However, James theres no hard feelings because at the end of the day, we are all here to win. As for the jurors I know some of you are pretty set on what you want to do but I hope some of you still have an open mind for why I should win!
Also, in mentioning the speeches and answered questions James gave, I compiled a list of things that I did not think were accurate about me and put them all in a list I am about to post lmfao. Prepare for another novel
I divided it into sections to help clarify what I am talking about. I typically do not believe talking defensively over your game is good because you have less time to assert points but I really have to address some things I thought were worth addressing. Ill say this now that I can acknowledge James has played a good game and im not blind to it but I still need to say all this!
Sheila and I
In Sheilas thread, her question was there any lies I told her and to just come clean about them. I was honest with her about pretty much my entire game while she was still in because I knew she did not have any super strong bonds to anyone so truthfully I felt like I could trust her with anything. Of course, I could be wrong but thats how I perceived it. She knew my true feelings and how I felt about Adam and James after I got nominated next to Richard. She also knew how I really liked her, Ais, and Amanda and how I wanted us to work together to get vengeance on everyone who looked at us as pawns in mega7. It was seem to be misconstrued that I was lying or deceitful to Sheila when if I did lie to her more, I would have said it in my speech. Sheila was always someone I felt good with so maybe I didnt give her a play by play of my strategy, but she knew who I liked, who I wanted out, and that was always 100% honest.
Final 5 HOH and Campaigning
James said that Amanda I made much less effort to campaign to him during the f5 HOH and I don’t think I did, but let me explain why he said that. When James won, everyone knew the clear target was Spiral, we all agreed on that. James told me that he was nominating Parker and Spiral so we went with it but I know I kept asking him if he was being serious because I knew of his lying past. I straight up asked him are you going to actually do it and he wasn’t giving me an answer so I joked around about having a power and he joked with me so I assumed we were still good. To me, there seemed no reason to campaign because I thought maybe he is being honest and again, spiral was the CLEAR target, it was not really up for debate. Had I known I was in trouble, I would have campaigned more but again in comparison to spiral, I thought he was perceived to be more threatening so why would I be nominated over Spiral. The way its being portrayed is that I didnt care or some shit and that was not the case at all I just thought at final 5, everyone would be honest about who their noms would be especially when one is a hulking target. Maybe thats me being naive to the reality of what should happen but thats how I perceived it.
My Social Game/Jury management
Some other things I saw James mention is me just being nice to people and learning “various random details” is really the only highlight of my jury management. Personally, I think this exact claim is why people think James has a bad social game. Learning various random things about people is a part of the social game because that shows you care and want to get to know them. Maybe learning little random facts is stupid to him, but thats what fostered my bonds with everyone because when somebody can repeat to you a little obscure fact about you, you feel listened to and appreciated. There is a psychology to playing a social game and understanding people so they can put their trust in you more than just sucking facts out of people for chess. What I personally think is a shortcoming of his game is the failure to acknowledge that there are human beings playing behind these characters, and not just robots. I don’t get to know people because I have to, it’s because I show that I actually want to. Its also about not kicking someone when their down like for example when Richard got eliminated, and James told me I shouldn’t be upset and Im taking it too personally that I got blindsided when all it was is that I was angry that I was blindsided. Of course its a game and nothing is personal and I did not take it as a personal attack either, but you also have to remember that everyone has emotions and that is what people lean on as a clutch when something like your best ally gets backstabbed. You might compare this situation with Richard similar to my HOH with Adam but a clear difference to me is I said to anyone during that time that I understand why he’s upset because that same thing happened to me where I felt betrayed; so Adam feeling betrayed and hurt by me is not invalid hence why I also told him in my speech I get it if he hates me because I burned him and a lot of people aren’t just going to sit there and take that. I did make bonds with everyone and yes I did admittedly tell everyone initially I got good vibes from them but people are more likely to open up to you If you express that you feel comfortable with them. I never explicitly said to anyone except Amanda and Richard that we are a final 2 because I did not want to make that promise to anyone. As for the people I made end game deals with(final 3/final 4), they were always honest in the moment that I was proposing them; that may sound confusing so let me explain LMAO. After Richard got evicted, Amanda and I wanted to make a final 3 with sheila and we brought that up to her before she left but she got evicted before we could go anywhere with it. With Sheila gone, I knew from there I really wanted to go to the end with Aisleyne hence why I protected her so much but she got evicted which nullified that deal all together. I made a final deal with Spiral but things changed when Parker came back and I realized how threatening Spiral truly was. I did tell Jen and Jennie near the end that I wanted to go to the final 4 with them (plus Amanda) and I was completely going to stay loyal to this but Jen got pulled from the game the exact round we made that deal and then of course Jennie got evicted. He writes in his speech that jury management is about convincing the jury you played the best game which is true! Convincing the jury includes playing that good social game. Strategy is something you cant just see and that you have to discuss in settings like this in the finale. However, in my mind, if you have to over-explain to people why you’re good socially when a lot of people don’t think that, I just feel like something is not right about that picture lmfao at least to me.
My HOH Reign
James said that during my HOH, his social game was the reason that he stayed off the block which was not the case at all. During my HOH, the round before it even happened I wanted to nominate Adam and Susie because they were the biggest targets in the game in my eyes. James was a backup plan but I knew that I had to put Adam and Susie next to each other to ensure at least one of them goes home. So I approached James with a deal saying that if he did not use the POV if he won it and if he kept me safe the next HOH if he were to win it, then I will not nominate him during my HOH. I said that because he was the one person I was afraid would squander my plan and I needed to cover my bases. If it was not for this deal, James would have gone up in replacement and not Jen.
Chelsia
James also has a very false idea of what went on in his relationship with Chelsia. The night Chelsia went off on me, she exposed both James and Spiral to me about being the people who threw me under the bus. He has this idea that if Chelsia stayed she would have gone after Amanda and I when she told me a few days after our fight and minutes before she left that she was always planning on targeting James because he was a liar in her eyes and she doesnt trust him. I lied vehemently to Chelsia that I had no idea about the backdoor and she believed me over James because James confessed about knowing about the backdoor plan which made her trust him less because she knew for a fact he went against her, but was not sure about myself because like I said, I refused to admit it. James also claims that Amanda and I were much less close with Adam than him when Adam said himself that he prioritized our final 3.
My Dependency on Comps
Another claim was that I was more dependent on comps than him and this could not be further from the truth. For example, on Susies HOH, as I mentioned in my speeches, Susie told me she would have taken me off the block if she won so it was not a chance of if the right person is gonna win the POV when 5/6 players without a doubt were going to take somebody off; im sure Jennie might have too but I am not sure I do not want to speak for her LOL. I think also in general that I did not need to win comps to get to this point. Obviously I had to win the duel but there was really no way I was gonna avoid that because James was always gonna bring Parker because he viewed him as the easiest to beat. For me, I knew that I could sacrifice losing a few comps and surviving but if James messed up any of the last remaining challenges he was going to get eliminated.
Going With The House vs Making Big Moves For Yourself
Finally, to address these big moves that I think James is putting a lot of weight into. Of course winning 4 HOH’s is a huge deal and I would be dumb to lie and say that is not something to admire. However, I think in of those 4 HOH’s the biggest move he made was getting out Richard. In his first HOH, he nominated Renny and Ryan. Obviously it was the first HOH so he wasn’t gonna do anything crazy, but just keep that in mind. His second HOH yes he made a crazy move of taking out Richard; however, didn’t that really seem more beneficial to Adam because Adam was really the only person who did not get along with Richard. Then his third HOH he took out Aisleyne who was being targeted for weeks at that point so I would not call that a crazy move. Finally his last HOH, he took out spiral which everyone wanted to do except Parker obviously. I do think he took risks in certain ways, but he totally shoots down the risks I took. Going against Parker was against what the house wanted so I did not go down that path of what the house wanted. In addition, I know Adam was starting to become a big threat when I won HOH so it was not also the craziest move ever, but no one took that shot and I could have easily rode the game playing the safe wave but I took that shot against him; especially because we had a final 3!
Parker vs Aisleyne
I also want to make a quick not about the Aisleyne vs Parker vote. I know that technically Sezer flipped and technically the vote outcome would have changed but I do want to reemphasize that Sezer was convinced within the allotted time to vote Parker so therefore even if he voted in the right place, the vote still would have went to Parker! So we can talk all about about how Sezer flipped and who flipped it but at the end of the day, we still got the same outcome
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Conclusion
Through all of this I will say it again though, I do not mean this to bash James or to advocate that I think he played a horrible game. I truly do not think he played a bad game at all I just think its very flashy on the surface but what you saw on the surface does not go much deeper than that other than the of course hidden plan to get rid of Richard; while with me there was more going on under the surface and more layers to it. Another example is in his speech when he said he planted seeds to Jennie and Sezer about how dangerous Amanda and I were when that move really holds no value because Jennie nor Sezer turned on Amanda and I the entire game so making note of that seems pointless. Also ironically about that, later in the game Sezer Amanda and I were on the verge of making a final 3 Lmfao. This is also simply a response to to all of James’s comments on my game since I feel like I putting down my game was 70% of his answers and his speech(nothing wrong with that just playing the game back) I will be happy to answer any further questions and ready to wrap up this season with you guys!